well, time passes and life wasted again and again… something is blocking my way to move on although that i know that i should removed them, sometimes i couldn’t resists. yeah the transition time is painful and the worse thing is that i couldn’t make up my mind, that’s the worse part. sigh… it is time to let go and move on to find another… i need to show myself a way to walk out from this. i guess a block and deletion will work, i just don dare to try… it seems hopeless yet i am holding the fake hope and hope for it comes true, what a silly man i am… i need to hideaway and hypnotize myself to forget about the pass, the present and the future…