here again… my crazy minds (passions) have been torturing me again with some wild thoughts. some girl i know from the internet have caught my interests again. this crazy minds drives me crazy for many times and every times it takes a long while to heal and back to be myself again. now i think it is starting again… i have had learns that way to stop this. still somehow i let it control over my normal minds again. maybe i wanna see if what will goes to the end of this… will it be as painful as before or will it be something diffrent? que boonlee boonee, whatever will be will be… ><

i called myself as an adventures type of people… i always challenge my fear…. well except for watching scary movies… thats because i know that the movie are made to scare people and most prolly my body cant take the after shock effect and might got an heart attack.

i face fear like no tomorrow… i dare and double dare ppl if they dare me… i speak my thoughts when i think something is not right… i stood up and fight take the damage if i must…. some they call silly… some they call act without thinking… but what the hey… i am who i am…

once before i was like a sissy… when things happeneds, i used to denied of staying of behind when there’s a fight starting…. everything was just so scary when things happened… but then again… it was my crazy minds who thought me that i should never start fleeing nor start self denying…. all man lives a short lives…. if you have alway stay out of something… u’ll never grow… grow in a good way or bad doesnt really matters..  the ever first time i learn that when i was like 17 years of ages in a basketball field when there are tensions and abought the start a fight between my frens and some other ppl and i was staying in the back… it ends up with no fights and my frens just laugh at me about this. at the very nite i have gone thru the situations again and have the crazy minds influencing me that what i have shouldnt done…. think of the way if one day, i am the one who got picked up by others and all my frens stay behinds me thinking of running off their lives… that gives me a real thought. at least if someone stood besides me i always believe 2 is better than myself standing alone. one day… just one day i might be the victims if i never giving out my hands

the next things that have changes me alot is when i have visit the Nanjing massacre memorial… in short times the japs massacre 300 thousands of chinese…. it was like in every 12 seconds there will be someone dead by that time. that gives me a strong believe that if allt he 300 thousand ppl stood up and gives the japs hell out of fight… history may change… cowardice are just not my style anymore since then….

passions are wilds, crazys and dangerous thoghts… but also it gives inspiration, creativeness and adventures at the same time. u will never know what will hapens until u have decided to go with it. most ppl have the thought but most ppl fails to work with it… the recent i’ve heard is that some ppl is quitting a nice pay work and will be looking for job in far north…. seriously i never believe on what ppl said… may i’ve get to know some ppl so well… thinking is always easier than making it comes through….