sometimes i really wanna blame everything to fate. esp when a series of unfortunate events happens to me. all these bad things struck and weakening my strong minds. sometimes i am so helpless and would have the feel to pray to gods, any gods but yet i still have my ego that i will never pray for gods for any helping hands. if gods only answer to those who prays for them, thats not a help, thats a pact that man and god makes agreement that if they are giving prayer to the god then only he will answer. i don see the merciful god would be acting such way. so long as i don do bad things to harm others or to cheat anyone, i think i am on the right way to worship the god. but well, who knows, god exists because there’s someone in the past who created the god, by that someone think that what he will behave, ritual that we should follow. religions have cause much of violence due to the diffrent views of the ritual and version of story told by someone who misinterpret.

 

anyway, what worse things could happens to me more? bring it on. if i cant solve it rite now in times i will be get used of it and become immune. i just wont pray to you yet. not even think of it. my knee worth more that such series of unfortunate events. bring it on! i would stand still and face them like a men! you have to do more for me to kneel to you and give a prayer. not just quite yet. don even think of it. 😀